[Damian uses the response as a way to buy time. But, in the end, he shrugs.]
'Normal' is - vastly misleading, I believe. But I was - always - supposed to be perfect. That does not fit with anyone's ideas. People tell me I am allowed to make mistakes - that it makes one human. But mistakes still mean, to me, that either I die, or somebody else does. People tell me I am supposed to have fun, or faith, or hope - and I still do not know exactly what these things are, let alone... how.
I am trying to find out what it is - human. But the more I learn, the more it is not... who I am. Nor do I know if I can be.
[The last bit comes out almost down to a whisper, and through gritted teeth. He's so mixed up about it. On the one hand, he's ... sad. Sad, because it means he's a disappointment to the most important people - Grayson. Brown. Pennyworth. Rayner. Maybe Father, too, but he's not sure about anything about him, right now. Or ever, anymore. But he's also angry. Angry for his failure, angry for being this. For being made this, too. So it just comes out.]
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[Damian uses the response as a way to buy time. But, in the end, he shrugs.]
'Normal' is - vastly misleading, I believe. But I was - always - supposed to be perfect. That does not fit with anyone's ideas. People tell me I am allowed to make mistakes - that it makes one human. But mistakes still mean, to me, that either I die, or somebody else does. People tell me I am supposed to have fun, or faith, or hope - and I still do not know exactly what these things are, let alone... how.
I am trying to find out what it is - human. But the more I learn, the more it is not... who I am. Nor do I know if I can be.
[The last bit comes out almost down to a whisper, and through gritted teeth. He's so mixed up about it. On the one hand, he's ... sad. Sad, because it means he's a disappointment to the most important people - Grayson. Brown. Pennyworth. Rayner. Maybe Father, too, but he's not sure about anything about him, right now. Or ever, anymore. But he's also angry. Angry for his failure, angry for being this. For being made this, too. So it just comes out.]