"Because now, as they leave, you know that they are gone. And there is no comfort in knowing that you, too, will join them one day soon." She squeezes his hand gently. "I may be wrong. I am not as close with any of you as you are with them. But that is how I see it. But, I must tell you something, Apollon.

"When I leave, disappear, die. Do not be sad for me. Mourn me, yes, miss me, but do not be sad. For me, I sought death. This here was wholly unexpected." She offers a mournful smile.