"I know you're trying, Gene. I don't want to punish you for that. I don't want to punish you at all." I don't want to hurt you anymore. And he doesn't. Even though he has every right to want to.
He doesn't want to hurt Gene, but he wants acknowledgement that he's hurting too, that he's not wrong to feel hurt, that he's not wrong to to be just a little bit upset that Gene had been hiding something like this from him. He has good reason to be wary of Gene's secrets, doesn't he?
Tony laughs into his hands, and it's shaky, like he's trying not to cry.
"I just keep falling for you. I shouldn't, but I can't help it. I fell for you in school, and the whole time you were keeping secrets that caused... everything that happened." Everything they'd just seen. "And I did it again here, and you were keeping more secrets here, and... I hate feeling like you don't tell me anything until I'm... in too deep to think straight. Like every time I start to have real feelings for you, you're going to drop another bomb on me."
He sniffs and rubs at his eyes, trying unsuccessfully to force back the tears that are leaking out. "I believe you. That that's the last one. But I..." But that doesn't do much to lessen the sting of this one. That doesn't do much, on the heels of their vision of home, to silence the whispers of he lied to you, just like before, you loved him and he was lying, lying the whole time. "...I dont' know. I just need... some time to let it sink in, I think."
that was such a good episode tho
He doesn't want to hurt Gene, but he wants acknowledgement that he's hurting too, that he's not wrong to feel hurt, that he's not wrong to to be just a little bit upset that Gene had been hiding something like this from him. He has good reason to be wary of Gene's secrets, doesn't he?
Tony laughs into his hands, and it's shaky, like he's trying not to cry.
"I just keep falling for you. I shouldn't, but I can't help it. I fell for you in school, and the whole time you were keeping secrets that caused... everything that happened." Everything they'd just seen. "And I did it again here, and you were keeping more secrets here, and... I hate feeling like you don't tell me anything until I'm... in too deep to think straight. Like every time I start to have real feelings for you, you're going to drop another bomb on me."
He sniffs and rubs at his eyes, trying unsuccessfully to force back the tears that are leaking out. "I believe you. That that's the last one. But I..." But that doesn't do much to lessen the sting of this one. That doesn't do much, on the heels of their vision of home, to silence the whispers of he lied to you, just like before, you loved him and he was lying, lying the whole time. "...I dont' know. I just need... some time to let it sink in, I think."