"I should be able to control it," Gene says vehemently, some of the earlier anger showing in his voice - but this time, it's directed at himself. "I'm nothing without control. And I don't want to use that as an excuse to do bad things - that I can't help it because I'm sad or out of control. I need to...I need to take responsibility for what I do. Something I've been ducking for years."

Yeah, he's been up late several nights since they'd gone home, staring at the ceiling in wide-eyed horror as the magnitude of what he'd done there had caught up with him.

"That's why I'd stay in Keeliai forever, if I had a choice. To avoid...responsibility."