It takes effort not to interrupt Raine as she speaks, and Pepper's hands are curled into fists on the table.
"I get why he wouldn't want to tell me. And I can even get that Bakura doesn't seem to care anymore," she starts, her voice shivering with rage. "But Gene cares; it still eats him up inside, I can see it every time I look at him and I hate it because I know what happened to him, I know what happened to turn him into the kind of person that would tear another human being apart and I'm beyond furious with the people that did that to him but they aren't around to nail to a wall so I'm just angry and I can't put it anywhere! I can't not be angry when I see him and he thinks I'm angry just at him and that I'll leave and- and I am angry at him because he's still the one that did it but I can't-!"
Pepper stops, squeezing her eyes shut for a moment and trying to sort out what she's actually attempting to say. There's a hair's breadth between passionate explanation and lashing out at an ill-placed target who only has the best intentions.
"I can't tell Gene that yet because I'm just too angry with someone who isn't even here that it'll all come out at him instead if I say anything! It's hard enough trying not to scream at you and you had nothing to do with it. He said I'm like a sister to him and I won't do that to him; I won't let him think that yet another person is going to abandon him because he's not good enough. I already yelled at him enough," she finishes, suddenly overcome with sadness to match the wrath that's seething out of what she's just said.
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"I get why he wouldn't want to tell me. And I can even get that Bakura doesn't seem to care anymore," she starts, her voice shivering with rage. "But Gene cares; it still eats him up inside, I can see it every time I look at him and I hate it because I know what happened to him, I know what happened to turn him into the kind of person that would tear another human being apart and I'm beyond furious with the people that did that to him but they aren't around to nail to a wall so I'm just angry and I can't put it anywhere! I can't not be angry when I see him and he thinks I'm angry just at him and that I'll leave and- and I am angry at him because he's still the one that did it but I can't-!"
Pepper stops, squeezing her eyes shut for a moment and trying to sort out what she's actually attempting to say. There's a hair's breadth between passionate explanation and lashing out at an ill-placed target who only has the best intentions.
"I can't tell Gene that yet because I'm just too angry with someone who isn't even here that it'll all come out at him instead if I say anything! It's hard enough trying not to scream at you and you had nothing to do with it. He said I'm like a sister to him and I won't do that to him; I won't let him think that yet another person is going to abandon him because he's not good enough. I already yelled at him enough," she finishes, suddenly overcome with sadness to match the wrath that's seething out of what she's just said.