"Hm. You know I have good reasons to be self-critical," he says.

"And what do you mean, 'for the right reasons'?" He's honestly a little confused by that. Is there a not-right reason to not want to find out firsthand what part of your soul looks like? Because he thinks he has some good reasons.

Mostly, he's just scared.

Scared that he, and everyone else, will be proven right. That he was born broken.