Nothing so dramatic, merely a moment of weakness. I was exhausted, let my guard down, and— well. [ the consequences are pretty obvious. let's not even mention the poor butler. ] It was a lesson hard learned, but I've seemingly managed.

[ He takes a seat, feeling rather dubious to the whole situation now that he's spoken of the Lucio affair to someone outside of the family. For a moment he sits rather still, unaware of medical procedure that isn't bloodletting or simple amputation ]

Perhaps it would be easier explained once you see.