As your feet, they touch the ground

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Characters: Korra (alphatar), Open
Date: June 9th, Late evening
Location: Brazen Turtle (Center of Keeliai)
Situation: Doing her job
Warnings/Rating: N/A

With the recent bombings and need for the kedan to have safe housing in the foreigner’s former suites, business at the Brazen Turtle has taken a dip. Food isn’t easy to come by, though the bar managed to get enough to serve its patrons. As barback, Korra’s tending to the bar since the drinks don’t need too much stocking.

Overhead is the scale model of the Starship Enterprise she had gotten Jim for Christmas and it has her attention when there’s little to no customers. At a simple, sullen command it flies sporadically or circles over the bar where she’s at. Depending on her mood, something that’s she’s distracting herself from by wiping down the bar, even if it doesn't need it.

The ship's lights and occasional sounds are soft, but poignant as always.

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Her shoulder slumped. Of course. Hadn't she just gone through this with Jack? He'd lost Clara. She lost Kyle. And now Korra lost Jim...so soon after losing Mako.

"You're not by yourself." Instinctively, her hand reached out for Korra's. Giving the older girl's fingers a gentle squeeze. "I'm still here. And I'm not going anywhere. Promise."

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It felt like she was alone, and Korra was looking at her hand when Zatanna squeezed her fingers.

Then her face hardened and she snapped out. "You can't promise that! Mako couldn't, Jim couldn't, Kyle couldn't, Bro couldn't, Julie couldn't, Zuko couldn't, Leo couldn't, Toph couldn't-" She had to stop. The list was big and she could go on, only it would have made her feel worse.

Putting her hands on the bar, Korra hung her head and let a harsh breath out of her mouth. That she maintained her composure since Jim left up until now was a testament to how much she actually did listen to the starship captain.

When she looked back up, she sounded tired even though there had hardly been any work to be done at the tavern. "I can't promise it either."

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You do realize it's a promise he can't keep?

Superman's words to her, the day she confided in him about Jack making the very same promise to her. Because she'd asked him to. Korra wasn't asking now, but she felt compelled to make it anyway, And her response to Korra now was the exact same one she gave Superman:

"I don't care." It wasn't the reassurance of the promise itself. It was the reassurance that he wanted to promise. That he would keep it if he could. The sentiment meant far more to her than anything else. "Besides...just try and stop me."

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She was too tired to get angry about it, and that was saying something considering it’s Korra. "Promising that just makes it worse when it does happen."

I know.

"Hasn’t anyone promised you that and just end up leaving anyway? They don’t get a choice." The only reason she wasn’t begrudging Mako and Jim’s recent departure. They wouldn’t have left her here if they could have decided for themselves.

She hoped so anyway.

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"It's not about the fact that they have a choice or not, Korra. It's about the fact that they care enough to want to stay."

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"A lot of good that does for either of us. I'm stuck here with a monster trying to destroy everything and Mako's back home at the time I left, and he's going to stay that way now until I get back home!" She's had too much, the last disappearances were the straws breaking the arctic camel's back. That anger burst through the emotional fatigue and erupted right out of her mouth.

"I didn't ask to be here! I didn't want to have to face Amon again! I didn't need to be dragged into someone else's war when my world needs me! I didn't have a say in ANY OF THIS!"

She threw the towel at the door with enough airbending behind it to fly right through it into the kitchen behind. "And wake up! We have a customer!"

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So Zatanna might have instinctively ducked when Korra threw the towel, the tips of her hair just barely getting caught in the windy backlash of her bending. This...was not how she had pictured their conversation going. So, basically, business as usual. One would think she'd learned by now....

Though, to her credit, this time she didn't fault Korra for getting mad. She didn't yell back. She only waited until it looked like the coast was clear before daring to peek up and over the bar.

"I told you, I'm not hungry right now. Really. I'm fine."

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The rattling of pots and pans could be heard as Korra seethed while she glared at the door. After a minute she turned back to the bar and was about to get a glass of water for herself when she saw Zatanna peeking out. Korra was still angry and she couldn't simply turn off her emotions, it wasn't that easy. That and she had been slacking in her meditation and the control techniques she learned from Bruce from what felt like ages ago.

"You can take it to go so you can have dinner later." She was trying not to flop back and forth between anger and depression. "It's just, everything is just getting more difficult." And there wasn't anything that was going to be good enough to wipe away all that's happened.

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"Fine."

Once she was sure Korra wasn't going to throw a towel at her, she returned to her seat, leaning back slightly.

"Are you telling me there's not one good thing about having come here? Not one?"

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"One thing? It could be five things, but there's still a thousand bad things! There's no balance." Something she started to care about the more she stayed on Tu Vishan. "We just get the worst and have everything happen to us and hold on to the one good thing we have. And it's not even our home or our families."

She slammed open the glass rack under the bar and yanked a glass out to pour herself some ice water, or it became ice water as soon as she was done pouring.

"That one good thing isn't enough anymore."

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"Korra..." Not for the first time, Zatanna simply didn't see it the same way. How long ago had she confided to the young Avatar that she was actually on the fence about even wanting to go home (yet)? "You don't mean that. We're here to help, remember? That's why they dragged us all here. Voluntary or otherwise...we're making a difference."

Shouldn't that count for something?

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"I can't spend the rest of my life were I don't belong helping a world that isn't my own! What about my planet? I'm the only person who can keep balance in it, I need to go back to save it. I've seen my future. If Evandau can stop me, then he can take care of that monster instead of having me do it."

The water's enough to give Korra a brainfreeze as she drinks it to cool off, but she simply increases her body temperature at the back of her throat to finish the glass.

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"Nobody said we would be here for the rest of our lives, Korra."

...was that literal steam coming out of her mouth?

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That's steam.

"And no one's telling us we aren't. I've been here for a year, you've been here longer than that! Do you really want to stay here for years trying to figure out how to stop that thing?"

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"I..." I still don't know. Her shoulder slumped. "I don't want to fight any more than you do."

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"Not like we can do anything about it." Except be angry apparently, but right now Korra would take what she could get. "I'm just sick and tired ofnot having a choice on what's going on and not knowing if the next day someone else is going to be gone or if I'm going to wake up at home."

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She went quiet. Almost eerily so. Her expression blanked, eyes staring at Korra, unreadable for a long moment. As if she were trying to gauge her words as carefully and precisely as possible:

"Now you know why I want to think more about the present than the future. And make every day with the people I love who are still here count."

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"I'm running out of the people I love. I can count you guys on one hand." Her tone was terse, but not nearly as much. Especially since she lowered its volume. "Mako probably would have said 'Ignoring it isn't going to make it go away.' or something."

The smell of cooked rice was filling the bar, and Korra headed off towards the kitchen door to tell the chef not to cook any meat. Something she'd gotten used to between hanging out with Zatanna and formerly living with Aang.

"I just hate this whole thing."

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"All the more reason to keep the rest of you close."

Even Korra's mood wasn't enough to sway her of that opinion.

"You don't have to hold back because of me, Korra. If you're going to eat, and you want a steak or something, I promise I won't be offended."

Since the cook was going through all this trouble...and Korra was currently dealing with certain abandonment issues...she wasn't about to take her food and run. Even if she wasn't hungry, she might as well nibble a bit.

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"I haven’t eaten anything yet." Said a bit off, as if it was something else’s fault instead of hers. Eating had become a random occurrence for Korra and she gave a sigh before heading over to the kitchen again to have her meal be made as well.

She came back with Zatanna’s plate and set it on the bar along with the napkin wrapped utensils. "Sorry. I didn’t mean to snap at you. I mean, I did then, but not now." Not the best apology, but maybe she could get points for trying.

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"Which time?"

Not the best response, but she was trying to maintain the air of casualty on the subject.

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"You know what I meant." Zatanna's casualness allowed Korra's temper to continue its decline. "I want to see everyone." She shook her as she clarified. "Everyone that's still here. I feel like we're all scattered, and the network's still acting funny, so getting us together isn't easy."

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For some reason, the lack of network didn't bother her all that much. Aside from the underlying implications of what it actually meant. She still had her magic. She still knew how to get around the Turtle on her own. And, most importantly...

"We could always throw a party?" It was only a partial joke.

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And that got Korra to be silent and actually think.

"You know, that might be something worth planning. I kind of liked that party at Sinbrilee." So much had happened that she enjoyed and learned from. "It's getting close to a year, and I haven't used that dress for anything since." But she shrugged her shoulders. It was pretty, but Korra wasn't too big on dressing up. "Maybe I can use the Water Tribe one I have from home."

Getting ahead of herself already.

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Hey, getting ahead of herself is good. Progress. It means she's so busy focusing on a possible future that she's forgetting to wallow in the present.

"That one was pretty fun, wasn't it? Though I'm not sure I have any new dresses to wear."