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tushanshu_logs2015-03-18 08:37 pm
redlightgreenlight) wrote in tushanshu_logs2015-03-18 08:37 pm
I was Looking for a Breath of Life
Characters: Valdis and Gene to start, others to follow
Date: March 26th
Location: The farmlands outside the city
Situation: Valdis' patience is at its limits, she hasn't slept in days, the nightmares are becoming worse and her thoughts are twisting into shadows.
Warnings/Rating: There will be blood...
The large hound ran across the back of the turtle at full speed, testing her agility, trying to keep her mind off the reoccurring nightmares and the evolution of her strange illness. She slowed as she approached the farmlands, sitting on the edge of a field to watch as people worked. Familiar and unfamiliar scents filled the air, but she ignored them all, losing herself in her thoughts. She was tired and not from running, it felt deeper than that and if her suspicions were correct, then it was also deeply disturbing. To say she was frustrated would be an understatement, she felt more on edge, agitated and anxious. She had a terrible feeling that it wouldn't take much to set her off and worst of all, she felt detached from herself, her normally sharp senses muted and dull.
She had been trying to pretend that nothing was wrong, it was easier than facing the truth. Lying to herself and others was so much simpler. Denial kept her going, acceptance would only cause more pain. Her head began to hurt and her vision darkened, the feelings of detachment intensified as her irises shifted color. She suddenly felt energized again, craving a release, she simply needed a reason.
Date: March 26th
Location: The farmlands outside the city
Situation: Valdis' patience is at its limits, she hasn't slept in days, the nightmares are becoming worse and her thoughts are twisting into shadows.
Warnings/Rating: There will be blood...
The large hound ran across the back of the turtle at full speed, testing her agility, trying to keep her mind off the reoccurring nightmares and the evolution of her strange illness. She slowed as she approached the farmlands, sitting on the edge of a field to watch as people worked. Familiar and unfamiliar scents filled the air, but she ignored them all, losing herself in her thoughts. She was tired and not from running, it felt deeper than that and if her suspicions were correct, then it was also deeply disturbing. To say she was frustrated would be an understatement, she felt more on edge, agitated and anxious. She had a terrible feeling that it wouldn't take much to set her off and worst of all, she felt detached from herself, her normally sharp senses muted and dull.
She had been trying to pretend that nothing was wrong, it was easier than facing the truth. Lying to herself and others was so much simpler. Denial kept her going, acceptance would only cause more pain. Her head began to hurt and her vision darkened, the feelings of detachment intensified as her irises shifted color. She suddenly felt energized again, craving a release, she simply needed a reason.
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[Said absently, though matter-of-factly. Raine frowns, though, as she realizes what she just said and examines that thought closer, more consciously.] I wonder if it would have helped her stop, or if she had it to begin with and misplaced it along the way-- I don't often see her without it. Locating it and testing the effects is a logical next step.
[Oh, right, Anton asked something a little more immediately relevant. Raine indicates both for him as well, and in a moment stands to help.]
[She's oddly grateful for his grounding presence; she usually has her head in a crisis, but Valdis' atypical responses are throwing her off. Thinking aloud, now, though vaguely in Wan's direction:]
Briefly conscious, though perhaps not lucid... I wonder if it's a matter of raw power, or of focus. I don't have a mechanism to target separate parts of a person's mana, but the way you spoke of it makes it sound as if her 'darkness' and this barrier are distinct from the part of her we would think of as Valdis. If that's the case...
[Nope, she still has no idea what piece she's missing to fix this.]