tushanshu_logs | If you close your eyes in a moment you will be there

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If you close your eyes in a moment you will be there

Characters: Pepper Potts, Yami no Bakura, Tony Stark, Adrien Agreste, and you!
Date: Throughout February
Location: House Spicy Iron Dragon, KPD Headquarters, and around Keeliai
Situation: It's snowing! That means Pepper is dragging friends outside to play. The Dreaming is making itself known in more ways than one, and she's predictably busy as usual.
Warnings/Rating: None yet

A. House Spicy Iron Dragon | Backdated to January | Bakura and Tony

With the dojo as damaged as it was, Pepper offered to have Bakura stay over at the house. Otherwise he was just going to be grumpy as all get out for however long it took to repair it. Her roommates might not be thrilled, but it was her life, and her boyfriend, for lack of a better term, and she wasn't going to leave Bakura hanging. She'd left the Rescue armor at the dojo to stand guard for the night, so by the time they got back to the house Pepper was a little chilled and definitely damp.

"I'm going to make tea," she declared as soon as they walked in the door. "There will also be scones."

B. KPD Headquarters | Feb 8 | Adrien

The police force is still busy with the last of the hurricane repairs, but it seems like the snow has deterred a lot of people from getting up to mischief. Her armor stands near her desk at the headquarters; it's pretty frigid outside and she's been wearing it every time she's on patrol. Now, though, she's got one of her favorite scarves wrapped around her shoulders and she's working on a backlog of paperwork from the storm.

C. Sky Sector | First half of February | Open

It's snowing! It's also really, really cold, but snow! That means snowball fights are 100% required, and making snowmen, and snow angels, and introducing all of these traditions to anyone willing to hang out. Pepper bundles up as well as she can and ventures outside when she has free time, and it's quite common to see her, red-cheeked and with snowflakes fringing her hair, grinning like a loon and hurling snow at friends.

D. Around Keeliai | Throughout February | Open

The Dreaming makes itself known every so often, and in new and weird ways pretty much every time. Pepper sticks mostly to her schedule, even when she starts hearing rumors about something strange happening among the Foreigners during the second week of February. As long as no one is dying, she mostly doesn't care. There's a lot going on in the city, and there's not much to be done about the Dreaming when it wants to make some noise.

Throughout the month, she can be found at the KPD Headquarters or out on patrol, though she's wearing the Rescue armor when on patrol as a way to keep warm in the snow. Jade Dojo is closed to the public, but Pepper still visits and it's not uncommon to find her in the Wood Sector a few days a week. And since home is in the Sky Sector, that's a good place to look if someone is trying to find her.

E. Central Sector | After Feb 12 | Zelos

After a somewhat tense if enlightening conversation with Kratos, Pepper has been considering Zelos and the potential problems that have been raised. This is a delicate situation for a number of reasons, and she knows she needs to be careful about how she handles things. She can't help Zelos if he pushes her away (although realistically, even if he did she'd keep after him because that's just what she does). It takes a little searching - he doesn't seem to be at the Hotel or the shelter, although she gets told he's been hanging around the Welcome Center a lot. So, that's where Pepper goes looking, and indeed she finds him nearby.

Rather than wave or call hello or do anything remotely resembling an appropriate or traditional greeting, Pepper picks up a large handful of snow, packs it into a ball and throws it at him. It may or may not be aimed at his head. "Hey, Zelos!" Predictably, she is sporting a wide grin, and only after hurling the snowball does she say: "Duck."

F. Midnight Hotel | Mid February | Miles

Having another New Yorker around is always a good thing. Miles is good company, too, although Pepper hasn't had a chance to see him much with the hurricane and the aftermath. Busy is good, but sometimes busy makes it hard to hang out with people. So when things calm down a little and there's enough snow on the ground to even make New York schools call a delay (though probably not a day off), Pepper heads to the Hotel in search of him, sporting a smile and ready to argue the relative merits of different boroughs.

G. Jade Dojo | Late February | Bakura

It's late, but the house was a bit crowded and Pepper knew that the dojo was always more private. Plus, she had offered to come by more often at night since she hadn't been visiting as frequently as she used to now that she was sleeping better. A little before twelve, she slipped out of the house and made her way to the Wood Sector, dodging a few stubborn piles of snow, and left her shoes out on the veranda to avoid tracking in mud or water. Since she was here to spend time with Bakura and not necessarily spar, she wandered into the office and went in search of him, calling his name softly to announce her presence.

(OOC Note: Let me know if you'd like a specific starter, or feel free to make your own!)

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Zelos doesn't have an answer for her at first. The amicable expression slips completely off his face and leaves him looking somehow both indifferent and lost.

How often has he wanted exactly this? Someone who cares about him, not his destiny, not his duty, not his privilege or position. But it rings hollow. It feels like when Lloyd said he trusted Zelos, blissfully unaware of what Zelos was planning. It feels... wrong. Just wrong. The well-meaning insistence of someone who has no idea whatsoever what Zelos is really like.

"Why?" he asks. "We just met. You don't know anything about me. Why do you care so much?"

It doesn't sound accusatory. It sounds casual, like he's asking Pepper why she likes her favourite colour.

He's doing that thing again where he pretends things are fine. Now is not the time to call him on it.

That's a good question, anyway. "Because I'm good at reading people, and you're nice. Because you respected my boundaries as soon as I laid them out. Because you are a lot more than you came off as in your first network broadcast," she explains gently. "Because I want to." Pepper smiles, almost wry."And also because I can take care of myself if you turn out to be a space god that tries to kill me. Had that happen once already, so I think I'd be better prepared the second time around."

"A space god tried to kill you?" Zelos asks. It's not at all what he actually meant to say, but defensive habits are tough to break. His mouth quirks in a half-smile. "Is that the same guy you were talking about when you said you forgave someone for trying to kill you?"

There's a story there, and Zelos wants to hear it. More than he wants to talk about himself, anyway. Pepper isn't making that anywhere near as fun as it usually is.

Well, if it keeps Zelos talking, this is better than nothing. "Yeah, that's him. We went to high school together. He pretended to be our friend but he was using us to find these super powerful pieces of alien tech." She doesn't want to get too specific and rat out Gene; this was the darkest part of his past. "He didn't realize they would bring down Armageddon on everyone's heads."

Pepper drinks some of her tea and sighs again. "Turns out his whole life was pretty messed up. It makes sense. People don't become supervillains when everything is going right in their lives. But he got the chance to change here. He's grown a lot."

That... sounds a lot like what happened with Zelos. He doesn't know if Pepper meant that comparison to be so obvious, but either way, it strikes a chord and ruins his attempt to stop thinking about it.

"That's good." He stares down at the table. "Getting the chance to change. Glad it worked out for you."

He doesn't say anything else. A smile, a laugh, even a little careless joy in his tone -- they all seem weirdly difficult to summon just then.

Their situations are remarkably similar without Pepper having to draw any parallels on her own.

"Yeah, me too. It's not the only time Keeliai has meant a second chance for someone, either. A lot of my closest friends have left pretty bloody pasts behind them, and everyone here has secrets. The turtle has a type," she says quietly. Her boyfriend tried to end the world twice and had murdered a number of people, one of her best friends had murdered him and tried to end her world, and many of her other friends have a laundry list of crimes that haunt them.

"I know this probably isn't what you want to hear." No one likes being confronted by their problems, especially by mere acquaintances. "And you're right, we don't know each other very well. I'm sorry to bring it up like this, but I didn't want to pretend I didn't know I wasn't getting the full story when I actually did. I told you I'm a bad liar, anyway." Pepper fiddles with her mug for a few seconds, thinking. "I guess what I'm trying to say is... you can tell me to drop it, but I can't. I can't pretend I don't know that something else is going on with you. I can try not to push too hard on the why, but I'll give you fair warning that I don't let go of things very easily." Or at all, really. "I'd like to get to know you better, and that means getting to know all of you, not just the nice parts. I already know the darker bits are there, I just don't know what they are," she reasons. "So. Offer's open, if you want to tell me what's happened, and it'll stay open until whenever you're ready or until you go home. Side note, though. I'm going to keep caring about you even if you don't tell me."

That sure is a whole lot of confusing things, one right after the other.

Zelos doesn't know Pepper well enough to guess if she's always this weirdly persistent, or if she actually did get context from somewhere. People don't care about him for him without knowing some of the truth. And even then, he'd always assumed the truth would be a dealbreaker. Leave it to Lloyd and the others to prove that wrong.

Pepper... probably means it, to be fair. But Zelos still can't help feeling like she knows.

"You," he says eventually, "are a doll. Okay, fine, you win. I'm not telling you the whole story. The... what did you call it? The darker bits of me. But unless you want to try to guess what I'm hiding, that's as far as you'll get."

He's grinning again. It's an invitation, sort of. It would make for an interesting game. "But you'll still care about me, right?"

It's both, Zelos, the answer is both. Pepper is stubborn as all get out and she also has information that prompted this conversation. The truth is rarely easy to hear, but Pepper has learned how important it is.

She gives him a small, slightly bemused smile. "Was I speaking in tongues? Yes, I'll still care, no matter how annoying you get. Dork." Unless he starts attacking her or people she cares about, that'll hold, and even then she'd probably still try not to hurt him too much to figure out why Zelos had gone bonkers. But that would be an extreme situation.

Pepper sighs quietly and looks away. This is not exactly the way she wants to start out a friendship, but it's going to be now or it's going to be later. Zelos probably won't tell her. Perhaps she should try a roundabout way.

"But if you try to get yourself killed again, I'm going to smack you into next week," she informs him, in an entirely un-roundabout way. Pepper, no.

The grin brightens and Zelos spreads his hands. "What can I say? I stopped listening by then. Just needed to make sure you know what you're getting yourself into."

That's absolutely a dorky grin, and it's absolutely dorky on purpose.

It all falters moments later with what Pepper says next. She can't mean -- no, of course she doesn't. It's just a figure of speech, right? Zelos sits back and eyes her consideringly. "What makes you think I ever did that?" he asks, voice and face carefully crafted for bemused confusion. It's easy, after so much practice.

Zelos seems to have learned a thing or two from Kratos about avoidance, and Pepper resists the urge to roll her eyes. This is serious, so she doesn't grin back.

Instead, Pepper looks him right in the eye with a sort of grim determination, and says, "I know you didn't just pretend to betray Lloyd. You actually betrayed Lloyd to try to make him hate you enough to kill you, and he wouldn't do it. Now, I don't know what happened to bring you to that point, and I'm not going to pretend I do. I'm not going to guess, either, because your life isn't a game. I don't need to know you at all to know that."

Context. She has context. And if she didn't get it from Raine, then --

"You talked to Kratos." Zelos's voice has a hint of anger in it, but even he's not sure where that anger's directed. "Did he wait a whole day, or did you find him and ask?"

Congratulations, Pepper. He's not avoiding anymore. Kind of hard to do when there's no more room to maneuver. That doesn't mean he's going to make it easy, though; the wound's still fresh, barely given a chance to heal before the Dreaming snatched him, and ignoring its existence since then hasn't done a single thing to help how raw it still is.

Well, that reply could have been worse, although it may yet still. Honestly, she's a little surprised that Zelos hasn't cottoned on to Kratos being the tattle-tale, but then again Pepper is used to puzzling things together and Zelos may not be.

She's also dismayed that Kratos was right; Pepper really wanted him to be misinterpreting things.

"Kratos has his own giant set of problems, and believe me, he and I are gonna be talking about them eventually, but he's not why I'm here." And that is, in fact, the truth. She'd told Kratos much the same. "I'm here for you. I get not wanting to say what happened on a public network, or really at all, but..." Pepper hesitates. Well, since she's poking at personal pain, she may as well share some of her own.

She speaks softly, but doesn't look away. "I know what kind of lengths I could go to, if I'm pushed far enough. I know I'm capable of becoming someone totally unrecognizable - an actual monster. And I'd be really good at it, too. My job right now is to protect people, to fight bad guys and evil and keep the world from ending, and I know that I could be worse than anyone my friends and I have ever fought against. I had to face that - literally face it, I saw my dad die right in front of me and almost went over the edge - and I had to accept it, or the thing that was testing me would've killed me and I wouldn't be here right now to talk about it," she tells him, and for the first time there's a tremor in her voice. "So I know a little about having shadows on my soul. I'm not trying to fix you, Zelos, because you aren't broken, and I can't make you do a single thing you don't want to. I just want you to know you're not alone."

Zelos would pay money to see Pepper talking to Kratos about his giant set of problems. Not much money, since that means having to meet Kratos in person, but some.

And if there's one thing that would stop his budding anger in its tracks, it's hearing that Pepper has a similar story. That is, in fact, exactly what happens. There's a confused sort of blankness on Zelos's face when she finishes, like all the reactions he had planned suddenly don't apply anymore.

You're supposed to answer that kind of confession with one of your own, right? That's how this is supposed to work. Pepper already knows the gist of it, so Zelos doesn't have any of his usual excuses to avoid the topic. But avoidance habits are hard to break, so it takes him a while to say anything.

"Yeah," he admits. "I betrayed Lloyd. I had a knife on his hunny's throat and turned her over to someone who wanted to use her to bring a goddess back. And even after all of that, Lloyd wouldn't --" Zelos stops, and sighs, and adopts a faint smile more self-deprecating than his usual. "You'd probably like him. The kid can forgive anything."

"I'm generally a fan of people who don't enjoy killing other people, yeah," Pepper replies mildly. Lloyd does sound like the kind of person Pepper would get along with. "You know that someone can care about you and be totally furious with you at the same time, right? It's okay to have it both ways. If Lloyd forgave you, he must have faith in you still, whether you like it or not."

Turns out you don't get to choose how other people feel about you. She's worried about Zelos, but doesn't think he's in any immediate danger. If he was trying to get someone else to kill him, he's hopefully not likely to do it with his own hand.

"If you'd done something like that to me, I would want to know why," she continues with a light shrug. "Especially if we'd gotten to be good friends. I would want to know what got you to that point. Maybe Lloyd did, too. Maybe he thought you deserved the chance to explain, or to change, or maybe some part of him knew you needed help, not a sword to the chest. I don't know. Whatever it was, you're here now; Keeliai is definitely the place to go for second chances, but that doesn't mean you can ignore your past. None of us can. I'm all for looking forward, but sometimes you have to turn around and face what got you where you are before you can take another step," Pepper tells him. "When you're ready. I can't make you do anything, like I said, but... I'm here, okay? I want to get to know you better and I want to understand and I want to help if you want that. It's up to you."

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