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tushanshu_logs2014-02-16 01:34 am
controlledvariable) wrote in tushanshu_logs2014-02-16 01:34 am
maybe I don't wonder why
Characters: Stephanie Brown AND YOU (also Bruce and Damian)
Date: 13th of February, after Steph's arrival
Location: All over!
Situation: Once more with feeling; by which I mean Steph is back and saying hi to a few people + fighting fog monsters bc why not
Warnings/Rating: Violence, Bruce, Damian, will update as necessary
It's disorientating, waking up again when she'd been in her suite only a few moments ago and for a second she panics before the presence of the kedan register, which - oddly, calms her down. Not that she trusts the kedan all that much, but she realizes what the whole thing means, including how groggy and weak she feels, so she knows better than to waste her energy freaking out. Waiting is easier, letting the kedan help her to the cart while she waits for the disorientation to fade.
Once it does, she asks the closest kedan which is her suite - laughs, because it's the same building as last time, although the room might be different - then thanks them for the trip before leaping out the back of the cart. She's still in her Batgirl suit, despite... not having been in it from what she remembers last of Keeliai, but that's something to worry about later. For now, it's much quicker to go by rooftop, and that's exactly what she does, familiarizing herself with the landscape as she goes. Things have changed, that much can't escape her, though she can't tell why, doesn't know what happened, which is more frustrating than anything, even if she knows there will be lots of explanations to come. Waking up somewhere other than the ocean means there's been big changes, though she isn't really going to complain, considering this option was a little more pleasant.
Anyway, what's most important is finding out who's still in the city. She checks for Steve and Peggy first, but their suites are empty or they've been replaced by someone else, and it feels a lot like her heart breaking.
She never even got a chance to say goodbye.
Sure, she left them letters, tried to tell them as often as possible how much they meant to her, and her last memory of Steve is tugging him into the water as she teased him. Her last memory of Peggy is telling her about it later, laughing even more as they combined forces to make fun of poor Steve, so they parted on good terms, she knew they were happy, but it still aches. For a few moments, she indulges the grief, breathing deep and blinking back tears, before wiping at her eyes and starting off towards Bruce's suit. Later, she can be sad about Peggy and Steve being gone, about them going back to their own separate lives where they can't be together anymore (and that hurts more than missing them does), but she should let Bruce know that she's back. She doesn't think he'll have been affected by her leaving like he was after Jason disappeared, the first time, but she... well, maybe he cared, just a little. Things had been better between them, after all.
→ Bruce
When she sneaks a look in Bruce's window and sees all the signs of him still being there, she lets out a breath she didn't realize she'd been holding. Fine, okay, maybe she's relieved that he's still here. She can admit that.
Still, apparently he's not home, which is frustrating, but it isn't the end of the world, she just heads out to see if he's at any of the safe houses she knows about. The first two she checks are long abandoned, but on the third warehouse she manages to find the security system still intact, and is even more relieved when she can actually access it. At least he likes her enough to give her access to his warehouse.
Of course, then she's inside, looking at Bruce's little collection of uniform cases, and all she can do is sigh.
"Really, Bruce?"
→ Damian
As soon as she's finished talking to Bruce, having gotten an update on who is and isn't here, the next person she needs to check on is so obvious it hardly even needs considering. She can't help feeling guilty about her absence, even though it's not something she could control; Damian would have taken it harder than Bruce did, maybe. For all his anger and bluster, she knows he cared about her, that they were something almost like family, and she knows that kids tend to take it a little more personally than adults do.
She owes it to him to see him next, to let him know that she's back.
Bruce tells her where to find him, and it's easy enough to slip back across the rooftopts until she's at his suite. While she could use the front door, she's still in her uniform, so she sticks to the shadows and gives on the windows a light rap, before stepping back to wait.
It occurs to her that it's a little tricky to breath, her chest is a little tight, and she realizes that it's nerves, because she's worried that Damian might want nothing to do with her. After she left, he might think it's better not to get attached again, to cut her out to save getting hurt.
And she doesn't want that to happen.
→ Open: the night of the 13th
Maybe she should take a break, grab something to eat and get settled back in her apartment, but she's feeling restless, too out of touch after how much Keelia and Tu Vishan has changed while she's been gone. Relaxing seems impossible, so she heads out again. Without the need to be anywhere in particular, she can take more time to relearn the lay of the land and adjust to the changes.
The fog makes all that a little difficult, and it's a little unsettling but she knows why it's there, between Bruce and Damian's explanations, so it's just... something to deal with. As much as she just wants to take the night to stretch her legs - despite having no memory from between her disappearance and arrival, she feelings almost as though she's been asleep for too long - there are problems to be addressed. Apparently the mold can be washed away, which is easy enough, so she spends a little time focusing on that. Batgirl can reach places some people might not be able to, even if Keeliai always did seem to have a large vigilantes and/or superhero population.
It saves her from having to think about everyone else she needs to tell that she's back. She'll do it... later, when she's had some time to settle in. The reunions with Bruce and Damian were enough for one day, when she's dealing with the loss of Steve and Peggy as well; she just needs a night or so to take care of herself before she has to deal with any more intense emotions.
So when she runs into the creatures that seem to have sprung from the mold, she's almost a little grateful for the opportunity to move and fight, despite knowing she shouldn't be thankful for this corruption clinging to Tu Vishan.
But it's something to think about that isn't Steve or Peggy or Bruce or Damian or how damn long she's been gone, so she throws herself into those fights with a little reckless abandon. She's sure they're not human, not really alive, so she doesn't hesitate to kill them. And for all that she's grateful for the excuse to fight as hard as she can, she certainly won't turn down any help offered.
It's going to be a long night.
→ Dick
The suite she's in feels empty, too blank and new even though she's started filling it back up with little personal items, even with Andy making herself at home. Somehow, it's worse that it's the same building, the constant reminder that she was here and then wasn't, that she's lost so many months. It feels almost like she's haunting herself, but with the fog outside, she can't exactly spend all her time outside, so she finds a compromise.
Today, that means she's found herself at Damian's suite, having waited until Bean and Midii left before letting herself in with the key she borrowed from Damian while he's in the bottle city. She knows Dick is still home, but that's fine, she's gotta run into him sooner or later, so for the moment she concerns herself with a mug of coffee, a book, and Damian's couch.
When she hears someone else moving about the house, she speaks up in favour of letting Dick stumble upon her, since she doesn't want to startle him, "There's more coffee in the pot, if you want some."
Date: 13th of February, after Steph's arrival
Location: All over!
Situation: Once more with feeling; by which I mean Steph is back and saying hi to a few people + fighting fog monsters bc why not
Warnings/Rating: Violence, Bruce, Damian, will update as necessary
It's disorientating, waking up again when she'd been in her suite only a few moments ago and for a second she panics before the presence of the kedan register, which - oddly, calms her down. Not that she trusts the kedan all that much, but she realizes what the whole thing means, including how groggy and weak she feels, so she knows better than to waste her energy freaking out. Waiting is easier, letting the kedan help her to the cart while she waits for the disorientation to fade.
Once it does, she asks the closest kedan which is her suite - laughs, because it's the same building as last time, although the room might be different - then thanks them for the trip before leaping out the back of the cart. She's still in her Batgirl suit, despite... not having been in it from what she remembers last of Keeliai, but that's something to worry about later. For now, it's much quicker to go by rooftop, and that's exactly what she does, familiarizing herself with the landscape as she goes. Things have changed, that much can't escape her, though she can't tell why, doesn't know what happened, which is more frustrating than anything, even if she knows there will be lots of explanations to come. Waking up somewhere other than the ocean means there's been big changes, though she isn't really going to complain, considering this option was a little more pleasant.
Anyway, what's most important is finding out who's still in the city. She checks for Steve and Peggy first, but their suites are empty or they've been replaced by someone else, and it feels a lot like her heart breaking.
She never even got a chance to say goodbye.
Sure, she left them letters, tried to tell them as often as possible how much they meant to her, and her last memory of Steve is tugging him into the water as she teased him. Her last memory of Peggy is telling her about it later, laughing even more as they combined forces to make fun of poor Steve, so they parted on good terms, she knew they were happy, but it still aches. For a few moments, she indulges the grief, breathing deep and blinking back tears, before wiping at her eyes and starting off towards Bruce's suit. Later, she can be sad about Peggy and Steve being gone, about them going back to their own separate lives where they can't be together anymore (and that hurts more than missing them does), but she should let Bruce know that she's back. She doesn't think he'll have been affected by her leaving like he was after Jason disappeared, the first time, but she... well, maybe he cared, just a little. Things had been better between them, after all.
→ Bruce
When she sneaks a look in Bruce's window and sees all the signs of him still being there, she lets out a breath she didn't realize she'd been holding. Fine, okay, maybe she's relieved that he's still here. She can admit that.
Still, apparently he's not home, which is frustrating, but it isn't the end of the world, she just heads out to see if he's at any of the safe houses she knows about. The first two she checks are long abandoned, but on the third warehouse she manages to find the security system still intact, and is even more relieved when she can actually access it. At least he likes her enough to give her access to his warehouse.
Of course, then she's inside, looking at Bruce's little collection of uniform cases, and all she can do is sigh.
"Really, Bruce?"
→ Damian
As soon as she's finished talking to Bruce, having gotten an update on who is and isn't here, the next person she needs to check on is so obvious it hardly even needs considering. She can't help feeling guilty about her absence, even though it's not something she could control; Damian would have taken it harder than Bruce did, maybe. For all his anger and bluster, she knows he cared about her, that they were something almost like family, and she knows that kids tend to take it a little more personally than adults do.
She owes it to him to see him next, to let him know that she's back.
Bruce tells her where to find him, and it's easy enough to slip back across the rooftopts until she's at his suite. While she could use the front door, she's still in her uniform, so she sticks to the shadows and gives on the windows a light rap, before stepping back to wait.
It occurs to her that it's a little tricky to breath, her chest is a little tight, and she realizes that it's nerves, because she's worried that Damian might want nothing to do with her. After she left, he might think it's better not to get attached again, to cut her out to save getting hurt.
And she doesn't want that to happen.
→ Open: the night of the 13th
Maybe she should take a break, grab something to eat and get settled back in her apartment, but she's feeling restless, too out of touch after how much Keelia and Tu Vishan has changed while she's been gone. Relaxing seems impossible, so she heads out again. Without the need to be anywhere in particular, she can take more time to relearn the lay of the land and adjust to the changes.
The fog makes all that a little difficult, and it's a little unsettling but she knows why it's there, between Bruce and Damian's explanations, so it's just... something to deal with. As much as she just wants to take the night to stretch her legs - despite having no memory from between her disappearance and arrival, she feelings almost as though she's been asleep for too long - there are problems to be addressed. Apparently the mold can be washed away, which is easy enough, so she spends a little time focusing on that. Batgirl can reach places some people might not be able to, even if Keeliai always did seem to have a large vigilantes and/or superhero population.
It saves her from having to think about everyone else she needs to tell that she's back. She'll do it... later, when she's had some time to settle in. The reunions with Bruce and Damian were enough for one day, when she's dealing with the loss of Steve and Peggy as well; she just needs a night or so to take care of herself before she has to deal with any more intense emotions.
So when she runs into the creatures that seem to have sprung from the mold, she's almost a little grateful for the opportunity to move and fight, despite knowing she shouldn't be thankful for this corruption clinging to Tu Vishan.
But it's something to think about that isn't Steve or Peggy or Bruce or Damian or how damn long she's been gone, so she throws herself into those fights with a little reckless abandon. She's sure they're not human, not really alive, so she doesn't hesitate to kill them. And for all that she's grateful for the excuse to fight as hard as she can, she certainly won't turn down any help offered.
It's going to be a long night.
→ Dick
The suite she's in feels empty, too blank and new even though she's started filling it back up with little personal items, even with Andy making herself at home. Somehow, it's worse that it's the same building, the constant reminder that she was here and then wasn't, that she's lost so many months. It feels almost like she's haunting herself, but with the fog outside, she can't exactly spend all her time outside, so she finds a compromise.
Today, that means she's found herself at Damian's suite, having waited until Bean and Midii left before letting herself in with the key she borrowed from Damian while he's in the bottle city. She knows Dick is still home, but that's fine, she's gotta run into him sooner or later, so for the moment she concerns herself with a mug of coffee, a book, and Damian's couch.
When she hears someone else moving about the house, she speaks up in favour of letting Dick stumble upon her, since she doesn't want to startle him, "There's more coffee in the pot, if you want some."
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He can accept her not being hungry, it's logical in its own way - no one feels at their best after the translocation - but he does, out of habit, put on a pot of tea. It's the closest chemical mate to one of Alfred's he's been able to approximate, but it's not identical. The Thermos he got from the last landfall (and shared with Jason, just before--) proved that.
He's silent as he works, but the silence is calm and steady, and when he breaks it his tone is level. "I'm sorry about Steve and Peggy."
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She doesn't mind about the tea being put on, it might help settle her stomach, anyway, so she waits without a fuss. It's a little reassuring, almost, just watching Bruce as he works in silence. It reminds her of the few days she spent in his suite recovering from the llothi attack, which probably shouldn't be reassuring, all things considered, but it's familiar and that's enough, right now.
Still, she wishes he hadn't said that, if only because it makes her wince a little, exhaling slowly as she closes her eyes for a second. She's not sure how to deal with... this, with how much she misses them.
"It's okay, everyone knows that's the risk of this place," That people can disappear at any second.
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He straddles a world of past and future, but right now, Bruce is... not content, per se, but tolerant of the present.
"That doesn't mean it can't hurt," he tells her mildly. It's a reprimand, if she cares to look for it. He's spent enough time trying to turn this girl into something she's not, but at the end of the day there's nothing wrong with being driven by emotion. He can't afford it, personally, and does disdain it to a point. But it's never made Clark a weaker man, or Diana a lesser soldier. Perhaps it's time his view on that changed as well.
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Not that he doesn't have a point, but it's one she already knows.
"I'm not ready to think about it yet," It's all still a little too much. This might not be the first time she's lost a few months, but this isn't the same as being in a coma, it's closing her eyes and waking up to a different world. It's blinking and losing two of the people she loved the most in the world, and it's going to be a little while before she can deal with that.
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"Another version of Rogers is here," he says. A warning. There's no sense in her being caught unawares. "He hasn't been particularly visible, but I've spoken with him once."
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"Is he from Nita and Brandon's world?" Part of her hopes he is, because Brandon seemed to think her Steve wasn't much like the one in his world, and maybe that'll make it easier.
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"Seems like there's a lot of alernates for that world," It's easier to talk about than Steve, especially talking about Steve with Bruce, considering how much they disliked each other. She can't help wondering if they talked, after she left, but that's not really something she wants to be thinking about.
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And Bruce doesn't like not knowing things, or recognizing them only in hindsight. He opens his mouth as if to say something else, to change the subject, and then he simply says nothing at all, merely pours himself a cup of tea. "Tim's here as well, now."
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"From when?" She just hopes he isn't from a couple of years ago, before she'd come back. Having that conversation with Cass was hard enough.
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"He's been here less than a month, himself."
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It's something to put on the to do list.
"Has he been adjusting alright?" Maybe she should make him a casserole or something to take when she visits him, god knows sometimes he forgets to look after himself.