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tushanshu_logs2012-09-06 11:21 pm
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[closed] and I watch you as you lose yourself
Characters: Stephanie Brown and Bruce Wayne
Location: Metal Sector, Bruce's suite
Situation: Steph goes to talk to Bruce after meeting Jason. This will go well.
Warnings/Rating: Probably talk of death, Bruce's issues, will update as needed
[This is a bad idea.
The phrase seems to run on an endless loop through her mind as Steph makes her way to the Metal sector, to the building she knows that Bruce is staying in. She'd waited until the party had petered out, until everyone had started drifting home, and it's early evening by the time she's approaching her destination. She'd kept an eye on Bruce, knowing that he must have seen Jason, even if she'd missed the actual confrontation. There's no way Bruce wouldn't have seen him there, and well - the way Bruce had looked during the rest of the party.
Steph might not know him as well as Tim, or Dick, or Cass does, but she's worked with him, she's been Robin, and she knows him well enough to see when he's hurting. It had surprised her a little, how bad she felt for him , despite the fact she's still somewhat sympathetic towards Jason. She wonders if that's a contradiction, or if it's how the rest of their family feels.
Not her family, she has to remind herself as she slips between buildings, keeping to the limited shadows. She has her own family, and anyway, she's never been part of that inner circle, for all that she's dated Tim, been Cass's best friend, worked as Robin. Bruce isn't her family, and the closer she gets to this conversation, the more she starts to question whether she has a right to bring it up.
It's a really bad idea.
But Dick isn't here, neither is Alfred, or Babs, and she doesn't know about Tim, which leaves it to her. Because god forbid she's going to let Bruce stew in this alone, for his sake, for Jason's, and for the entire city of Keeliai. Gotham can handle their family drama, this place isn't built the same way. Maybe she doesn't have a right to talk to him about this, but she cares enough that she wants to try anyway.
She's dressed simply, in "local" clothes, though she'd still been careful to make sure no one sees her, and by the time she's knocking on Bruce's front door, she's confident that her journey here has gone undetected. That doesn't make her any less nervous, and all she can hear is her heart beating too fast as she waits for the door to open.
She hopes this isn't a bad idea.]
Location: Metal Sector, Bruce's suite
Situation: Steph goes to talk to Bruce after meeting Jason. This will go well.
Warnings/Rating: Probably talk of death, Bruce's issues, will update as needed
[This is a bad idea.
The phrase seems to run on an endless loop through her mind as Steph makes her way to the Metal sector, to the building she knows that Bruce is staying in. She'd waited until the party had petered out, until everyone had started drifting home, and it's early evening by the time she's approaching her destination. She'd kept an eye on Bruce, knowing that he must have seen Jason, even if she'd missed the actual confrontation. There's no way Bruce wouldn't have seen him there, and well - the way Bruce had looked during the rest of the party.
Steph might not know him as well as Tim, or Dick, or Cass does, but she's worked with him, she's been Robin, and she knows him well enough to see when he's hurting. It had surprised her a little, how bad she felt for him , despite the fact she's still somewhat sympathetic towards Jason. She wonders if that's a contradiction, or if it's how the rest of their family feels.
Not her family, she has to remind herself as she slips between buildings, keeping to the limited shadows. She has her own family, and anyway, she's never been part of that inner circle, for all that she's dated Tim, been Cass's best friend, worked as Robin. Bruce isn't her family, and the closer she gets to this conversation, the more she starts to question whether she has a right to bring it up.
It's a really bad idea.
But Dick isn't here, neither is Alfred, or Babs, and she doesn't know about Tim, which leaves it to her. Because god forbid she's going to let Bruce stew in this alone, for his sake, for Jason's, and for the entire city of Keeliai. Gotham can handle their family drama, this place isn't built the same way. Maybe she doesn't have a right to talk to him about this, but she cares enough that she wants to try anyway.
She's dressed simply, in "local" clothes, though she'd still been careful to make sure no one sees her, and by the time she's knocking on Bruce's front door, she's confident that her journey here has gone undetected. That doesn't make her any less nervous, and all she can hear is her heart beating too fast as she waits for the door to open.
She hopes this isn't a bad idea.]
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[He finishes drying the glass and sets it to one side, reaching out to grip the edge of the sink so he can avoid turning around.]
I haven't always been fair to you, Stephanie. I'm going to try to change that here. If you need me, ask.
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With everything they've talked about tonight, with how she's feeling, that final comment has just short circuited her brain. The last time he really said something like this to her was when she was on her death bed and he promised that she really had been Robin, that no one could take it away from her.
But she's not dying right now and he has no reason (like guilt) to be nice to her, even if most people don't need reasons to be nice, Bruce usually isn't like that, at least in her experience. And even ignoring the fact that it's coming from Bruce, hearing someone admit they haven't been fair to her is also something she's not sure what to do with. When people treat her badly she usually just sucks it up and moves on. The only person who actually tried to change was her mom once she'd gotten clean.
This is too hard.]
Alright.
[That's all that she can manage, and then she's just going to look at the ground instead of staring at his back because she doesn't know what to do.]
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[SUPER DUPER BRUSQUE FEELINGS OVER LET'S NEVER SPEAK OF THIS AGAIN FOREVER.]
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Steph scrubs a hand over her face, shaking her head in something like shocked bemusement at this whole situation, before she walks to the door. And then pauses with her hand on the handle]
A tip for the future, you might wanna button your shirt up before hugging teenage girls.
[It's a joke, yes, but it also serves the purpose of saying something that she can't bring herself to say out loud. The fact that she can joke about something like that, after their conversation about Sionis and her dad and Murray, is her way of saying that it's okay. She might flinch sometimes if he gets too close too quick, and it might make her panic a little when he does the whole Alpha Male routine.
But she's comfortable enough with him to make a joke about his shirt being undone. She wants him to know that.]
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I'll keep that in mind.
[For all the reasons she doesn't say outloud.]
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And with that she opens the door, slips out, and closes it quietly behind her. She's glad to have the walk home ahead of her, it'll give her time to think.]