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Characters: Korra, Finnick, Po, Bean, Dinah, Tony Stark (616), Amon, Sabriel, Jim Kirk, Damian, Toph, Lin, Jack Frost, Raimei, Enjolras, Kyle Rayner, Bruce Banner, Asbel, Aisha, Katniss, Iskierka, Richard, and OPEN (That means YOU.)
Date: Various dates throughout July when not conflicting with Korra’s time during the clueventure.
Location: Korra’s suite, Various locations
Situation: Fish, Training, Flying, and whatever else happens!
Warnings/Rating: Physical violence, PTSD, NPC death, blood, FEELS, maybe even some swearing.

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[That boost, that understanding was the one thing Korra craved. Not warnings, not advice, not demands, and not a scolding. Just understanding; assurance that she wasn’t alone in what she was going through. Even though she and Lin didn’t necessarily agree that she would be apologizing for her actions, Korra knew that was something she had to do eventually. It was something she was a little wary of, suffocating wasn’t a fun experience and she did not want to face that possibility again. When she found a good way to go about it and everyone’s tempers had cooled, then she would. Not as much fire to stoke.]

I’m actually kind of used to it too. [Having weathered ‘talking to’s and ‘pulled asides’ that usually ended in shouting matches and displays of anger, not unlike the blast she let out in the clinic, Korra was very knowledgeable in how to roll your eyes at someone when they try to fix a problem by doing the same thing over and over again. Lecture after lecture.]

This is just the first time I’ve gotten this much backlash over it. But then again, that’s the first time it happened since I arrived.

[Being who she was, Korra’s usual temper flares were sideswiped by connections through the White Lotus and her title of Avatar. After all, what is one more angry teen in their world?]

But thank you. [And she meant it, her tone lowered and more heartfelt.] You’re the first person who’s tried something different. Something that makes sense to me.

[Although Bruce felt deeply guilty over his own casualties, his were also much more severe than hers. Lives lost over the course of years, whole city blocks destroyed and lives ruined outside of his control. It was impossible to understate how guilty Bruce felt for that. But he never apologized much, either-- it didn't do any good. There was no way for him to make up for the loss he'd caused, and he tried to funnel his regret into doing better, working harder and more ruthlessly to keep himself under control in the future.

It didn't always work. Not by far. But it was a better apology than words.

He's almost a little embarrassed that his hard won experience has helped her, to get such sincere gratitude. He ducks his head slightly, a lop-sided smile just edging onto his expression.] Don't thank me yet. We haven't really done anything.

[Until now, he's been unsure whether he wants to help her more than some piecemeal words of advice. And truthfully he's still not totally sure he wants to commit. But hearing how much it means to her to at least have someone understand makes him want to try, almost as another form of apology to his victims.]

You have to keep trying, [he says honestly.] And you can't listen to anyone else. Not even me. I'll give suggestions, but you have to do what works.

I know it's hard, and it doesn't really... stop. [There isn't a day off, there isn't a break, and the consequences of slipping are astronomical.] But you don't want to hurt anyone, and that's-- pretty powerful motivation.

We’ve done more here than in the past thirteen years of my life. [Half-jokingly, though it was entirely true.]

I’ve manage to find what works for me in other things, so I should be able to find what I need here, but suggestions are a great starting point. [The not listening to anyone else, that part Korra knew she could do without even trying really.]

Well, I was born to help and protect help people, so I’d rather not be what they would need protecting from, you know.

[There was a break in her rhythm of speech where Korra wondered if she should ask the question that on the tip of her tongue. She knew it was something personal and didn’t want to-]

Is that what motivated you?

[and it slipped out of her while she was internally debating. She quickly tried to recover.]

You don’t have to answer that. At all. Sorry.

[He's glad he's helping already, even if it does make him question why anyone else would be so stubborn as to keep pushing her toward things that weren't working. The results were everything when the consequences were what they were here, and ironically that's the other topic of conversation they're discussing.

Bruce shifts his weight at her question, but shakes his head at her backtracking.] You can ask. I don't answer anything I don't want to. [He says it simply and impersonally, but it's absolutely true. Bruce never lets himself be boxed into opening up more than he deliberately intends to, and one teenage girl asking a question on a very pertinent subject isn't going to bother him.

It is something that affects him deeply. His guilt is a clutching, clawing ghost inside of him, one he can never escape from. But he also believes in taking responsibility for what he's done and owning up to it, moreso than he thinks he should indulge his own desire to ignore his actions. He can't ignore them.]

But yes, it was. I've always wanted to... [A short exhale, centering himself to say it.] To protect. To not be-- the monster that's doing the hurting. I haven't succeeded at that entirely. [There's a dark note suddenly, just a brief hint at the depth of self-loathing he feels, before it's gone and swept away again.]

But I can't stop trying. When I feel like I'm going to lose it, I try to-- remember, what the consequences are. It makes it a lot easier to rein it in.

[The image of Betty covered in bruising and bandages, weakly opening her eyes in a hospital bed, never failed to stop him in his tracks.]

[All of his abrupt, blunt honesty something Kora finds very refreshing. It’s uncommon, and yet it’s something she always looks for only to usually end up disappointed. Korra’s brow furrowed, for a fleeting moment she caught, or rather felt, a different part of Bruce. Completely different from the casual and aloof demeanor she had seen of him since she set foot on the roof. While monster wasn’t how she would describe him in the slightest, Korra had seen people who had another side to them than what was shown. When she had, painfully, discovered Tarrlok was a skilled bloodbender was one such occasion. However, he had never been earnest and honest until recently. Unlike Bruce, who genuinely came across as a positive influence.]

I think you can protect people if you really want to. If there’s nothing else to it, nothing you want to gain from it, then you have all the motivation you need to start. [As fiery-tempered and impatient as Korra was, she did want to help and assist others. Unknown to her, that penchant is embedded into the spirit of the world that resides within the Avatar and it presses itself upon the reincarnated benders.]

I don’t know how good of a job I can do right now with all that’s going on, but I’m willing to teach as best I can. [She grinned simply.] Favor for favor.

[Balance.]

[In general, Bruce doesn't see any reason not to be blunt. He doesn't believe in softening the truth once he's accepted it, however long that painful process might take him. But life isn't fair, the world isn't fair, and there's no sense pretending otherwise. Any privacy he might wish he had was more or less impossible, because those around him were owed a certain guarantee of safety from him. Bruce was a constant, walking threat, and if they wanted to know the extent of the danger they were in, he couldn't find it in himself to keep it from them-- not here where they could know.

Korra's blind optimism in being able to protect others, when he'd failed countless times to do that, seems naive to him. But he likes the alternative even less, thinks someone her age probably should feel that way. Maybe she can protect others better than he can, and it's not as hopeless an endeavor for her. Bruce doesn't intend to ever stop trying, as he'd said, but he has to admit he's jaded to it by now.

He smiles just slightly, a wisp of an expression.] What do you think you'd be teaching me? Fighting?

[He's not saying no or yes yet, just asking. Because if there's anyone that has simplistic motivations for protecting others, it's him. Bruce has never needed more than the knowledge that someone would be hurt if he didn't to motivate him to do it.]

[That hint of a smile, that twitch on his lips was a sign to Korra that maybe, just maybe she ws helping him in some way. She wasn’t sure exactly which way, especially with knowing nothing of his life experiences or even much beyond his name, the fact that he’s a scientist, and that he was teaching meditation to not only her. Something she remembered Jack telling her before she left to the clinic that day. That is what that nigh invisible smile brought to her mind.]

Fighting is part of it. Martial arts mixes into the other part; the spiritual part of what I know. [Even though she never trained anyone other than Bean, who was definitely gifted, Korra wasn’t about to let that rain down on her confidence.]

I’m getting the hang of the second part since I’ve got the fighting down pretty well. [Said with both enthusiasm and slight guilt. Too well maybe.] The hardest part to teach would be in doing everything you can to help people. Even trying to do things you know you can’t, or shouldn’t.

[Placing her knuckles together gently, Korra gives a slow nod.] But I think you know some of that already, huh?

[Unused to anyone really even noticing him in the first place, having his efforts acknowledged catches him even more off guard. Bruce tends to-- mistakenly, here, he realizes-- think of himself as under the radar, unremarkable and insignificant to most people's lives. It's the way it should be. He slides through them and they never notice how much effort he puts into protecting them every single day, and it's only in the places where he makes it more overt, where he provides emergency medical treatment or builds a well for a clean water supply or some other act of louder kindness, that he gets thanks.

But Korra doesn't know any of that. Self-conscious, his straight-backed posture drops slightly as his shoulders hunch forward, and he can't do anything but smile an inch wider, awkward and trying to play it off.] Yeah. I already-- yeah. Anything I can manage. [He drops his posture even more to look away, break eye contact, and run a hand up over the back of his neck. With a twist of dry humor, he adds,] Tends to get me into trouble.

[Glancing back.] I'm not much into the spiritual, but I have been needing someone to practice forms with. Uh, tai chi forms. I also know aikido and Capoeira, not great but enough to get by. If that's what you mean by martial arts.

[When he relaxes, just that little bit, Korra wondered how long it had been since he even let something like that happen. Awkward as his motions were, Korra did like the dry humor. It let her know that it was okay to not be serious around him constantly.]

Doing the right thing, even if it gets you in trouble? Yeah, I think we have a lot in common. [That was usually what ended with Korra’s lectures. Even when she left to go see the pro-bending matches, it turned out for the best. The modern fighting styles of bending complimented the traditional ones quite well. Even Tenzin could refute that one.]

We can work on the spiritual stuff together. Should be easy since there are actually spirits here on the turtle.

[As he listed off the forms, Korra tried to place them, but the only one that sounded familiar was the first one. Dinah had showed her that it was just like:]

Water! [After blurting that out, she quickly followed it up so he didn’t get lost, or worse, think that she just randomly blabbed elements without reason.] Tai chi, that’s the form of Water on other worlds!

[Bruce might be almost unfailingly serious, except for when he turns his humor on himself in wry self-mocking, but he doesn't usually mind too much when others aren't. He doesn't want any authority and doesn't try to impose his opinions on others, and expects that same respect in return. It's probably why his approach toward Korra has worked out so well-- he wants her to make her own decisions, and is merely offering his experiences as suggestion.

He doubts they have all that much in common, but he's not going to mar her enthusiasm, just lets his smile turn a shade more wry. He hopes they don't have that much in common, at least. He wouldn't wish that on Korra.]

I'm actually okay with the, not so spiritual, [he says calmly, not getting into the difficulties of being a staunch atheist on a magical Asian themed turtle.] But it's definitely a component around here. [He is interested in learning about it academically, in betterment of understanding his environment and the rules of reality here.

Then he turns mild surprise on her.] Really? That's... convenient. It's pretty good for meditation. And most of the martial arts I know because they're centered around defusing conflict, instead of escalating. [With what she already knows about him, Bruce is sure she can guess why.]

[An important component here, especially when it came to Asti or Malicant, both who were spiritual in a different way than Korra was used to. A lofty, not nearly as serious, grin comes across Korra’s face.] I’m still the bridge to the Spirit World, even without knowing a whole lot, I think I might be able to get some assistance from past Avatars here and there. [That was a whole other can of worms she didn’t want to fully open just yet.]

Then I guess we should stay away from Fire. Or North Showling Kung Fu. Sholun? [Squinting an eye, Korra tried to remember what it was exactly Dinah had called.] Either way, it focuses on strength, force, speed, and anticipation for combat. Water though, yeah, that sounds about right. [Having learned her innate element from the most understanding and patient teacher allowed Korra to master it even more so than firebending. Still, she favored firebending because it came so easily to her, and even though she was technically a master of the element, lightning was still beyond her reach.]

Maybe you can teach me some of those martial arts too if we have time? I wonder how they would affect bending…

[Definitely a thought she stowed away for later.]

So okay Bruce, when do we start all of this? [She’s more than happy to lock him into her schedule.] I have a home gym, a practice area, and a meditation room set up at my house in case the weather gets too bad to be outside.

[There's the immediate question of what is an Avatar? that Bruce doesn't ask. It seems like it's going to be a large topic, and he doesn't really feel compelled to get into it. The conversation's already moving on, and he's fine with that.]

Shaolin, [he corrects, assuming that's what she means. He's spent enough time in China to know it by name.] I don't know anything about, uh, bending, but we can see what works. Fire might be useful for, letting some of it out on purpose, like I said.

[Whoa, now he's suddenly part of a schedule. Bruce doesn't think he signed on for this, and suddenly turns hesitant, feeling like he doesn't know what he's getting himself into.] Let's just do weekly, [he prevaricates, resigning himself to this much at least.] I'll just check in with you and see how you're doing. But you should really get used to doing the exercises on your own.

[That's the whole point of anger management, after all. You have to be able to do it independently, outside of the controlled circumstances you learn it in.]

[Korra nodded at his mention of using Fire, her small smile at ‘letting it out on purpose’ was something she was looking forward to. Anything that further honed her mastery of Fire was definitely something Korra approved of.]

All right! I can do weekly. Any day is good for me, so whenever you have free time or just want to have some grub and talk, we can do that too.

[She was quite sure by now that he wasn’t the very talkative type, but offering it was the first and only step she was going to take on that right now. Openly talking was an important thing in training, it wasn’t something she had learned until her tutelage under Tenzin.]

I’m here in Metal at ME-2B.

[Now he's being signed up for socializing. Bruce feels a little like he'd dipped his toes into the water and then gotten dragged in full force. But he doesn't mind, exactly-- he thinks Korra is worth helping if anyone is, and as he's just said, he's terrible at resisting the impulse to help.

He can't help a slight smile at her, resigning himself even further.] I'm usually in my lab in Fire at Stark Industries. [Practically an open invitation to stop in and harass him when she feels like it.] I don't know how well my methods will work for you, but I do know one thing. Trying to keep it all in isn't going to work.

When I have a better understanding of your powers I can try to be more specific.

[At the mention of Stark Industries, Korra brightened. There had been nothing but good experiences there from both Tony, before he left, and with Pepper; whom Korra was fond of. The lab wasn’t surprising considering how he came up with the hydroponics garden and the success that came with it.]

Hey, your methods sound awesome to me. [Actually making use of her anger in small, controlled bursts sounded very handy to her. Bottling it all in had been a disaster in the past and never worked, and the fact that he had offered alternatives made Korra excited.]

I can show you bending anytime you want now that we have our powers back, just let me know. [Unfolding her legs to stand up, Korra patted him on the shoulder, firmly, but not had.] I’ll let you get back to your stuff. [Now that she knew how important it was to him.]

I’ll be giving you the full report next time, all right? [She made her way back to the square of sidewalk she had used as an elevator, and Korra waved at him as it lowered her below the edge of the roof when the sound of it moving suddenly stopped.]

Oh, and tell Pepper I said hi, okay? [Her hair, eyes and nose peeked over the edge to deliver that message. She waved once more and the sound of the stone being moved was heard again, her hand waving before it too was lowered out of sight.]

[The contact is a little unexpected, but Bruce doesn't mind; mostly he's left bemused, watching her walk away and give him an impromptu demonstration of bending right after saying that she'd be willing to any time.

He waves back vaguely, feeling a little like he just got steamrolled into a commitment without even realizing he was doing it. At least it's for a good cause, he tells himself dryly, reluctantly amused despite himself as he closes his eyes, returns his hands to their mudra, and goes back to breathing.

This time, pondering how he could teach this to someone else.]

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