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February Catch-All

Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi and YOU!
Date: All of February
Location: Keeliai and Tavimbi
Situation: Getting to know you and Landfall!
Warnings/Rating: None that I can think of?

Obi-Wan is still somewhat adjusting to things here on Keeliai. So the fact that the giant turtle makes landfall on a continent is surprising and piques his curiosity.

He can be found either wandering around the streets of Keeliai or Tavimbi. Willing to talk to just about anybody. Especially the Kedan and the Tavimbi natives.

Upon sensing a power that is not unlike the Force within Tavimbi, which he comes to know as the Xunutane, he will make checking that out his highest priority.

Feel free to find him just about anywhere!

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Obi-Wan waits patiently for Anakin to absorb this and vent his frustration as is his way. The Jedi Master sitting back and crossing one leg over his knee.

"Oh yes, we can. Have patience, Anakin. Time as we know it stands still while we are here. Once we leave it will be as if we were never here."

Or at least that's the theory he's read about. Supposedly from accounts from other foreigners that have gone and come back.

"Are you sure? What if we go back and something has happened --" To Padme. "The separatists could have broken through. And grievous and the sith lord are still out there."

By this time, Anakin gets up and just starts pacing back and forth. The idea of sitting back and being idle clashes with everything he believes in. Besides, there's always a chance that Obi-Wan is wrong.

And if he is ...

Anakin's mind fills with all the terrible possibilities. Things he can't let happen.

"No."

Darn that truth virus. Obi-Wan watches as Anakin paces. He knows quite well what his friend is likely upset about.

"Please calm yourself, Anakin. No one has found a way to get back on their own. Getting upset is not going to help our situation. We're out of our element here. I don't think we're even in our own galaxy. I've been trying to learn as much as I can about this planet, and I suggest you do the same. Eventually we may find a way."

"Eventually could be too late. And I won't let -" he stops himself before he finishes his own sentence.

He does stop his moving, but only for a brief moment to look at Obi-Wan. Then he starts back up ending up over at a table where he starts messing with a few things on it. Just picking at stuff.

"I'm sorry, but I can't just sit here. I need to do something. Anything. Waiting cost me my mother and that can't happen again," he says and then turns to stare Obi-Wan directly in the eyes. "Can you at least try to understand?"

That last question was like a punch in the gut, and again he found himself answering honestly.

"I do understand. More than you know."

His voice is quiet, and solemn. He had good reason not to be in a hurry to get back. Though he knew Anakin wouldn't understand that. Just as his friend didn't want to lose Padme, Obi-Wan didn't want to lose him. Though he knew it was inevitable. It had already happened from the point he had come from. The only thing he could do was hopefully prevent it here.

Edited 2016-02-15 13:21 (UTC)

"Do you?" Anakin instantly snapped momentarily losing himself to his own emotions. Feelings that ignited like molten lava. "I saw her in agony. I felt her pain and everyone told me to ignore it. And she suffered because I couldn't get there in time. I couldn't save her."

In a single motion, he knocked something off the table. He didn't know or care what. He just felt like breaking something. Tearing it into little pieces.

"I wonder," he continues with a heavy breath, "I wonder if everyone would have believed me if I saw a Jedi in my dreams. Do you think? Mace Windu or Master Yoda even. I'm sure the council would do everything in their power for one of us."

He knew very well that he's blowing up at Obi-Wan who is normally someone he wouldn't speak of all of this. But he had no outlet at the moment and he felt backed into the corner by being stuck in world. No way out. No escape. His emotions built up until they just flooded out, but that wasn't even everything.

Just a tiny scrap of the mind belonging to Anakin Skywalker.

As Anakin went on, Obi-Wan rubbed his forehead in exasperation. He was being irrational, moreso than he had usually seen him. Up until a certain point. A point that had lead to disaster. But there was something he said that made him frown. He tried to chose his words carefully.

"Did you even tell anyone about these dreams, Anakin? Were you planning to tell me? You know that attachments are forbidden in the Order."

He knew the answer to those questions already, but was hoping it would make Anakin stop and think for a moment.

"Perhaps its time for total honesty between us. What did you do, Anakin? What do you mean you couldn't save her?"

"I --" Anakin did stop. He turns to glance at Obi-Wan. His gaze ended up drifting from emotional to almost solemn. "I'm sorry, Master. I shouldn't ... I know better than to let my emotions to get me. It's just this place and I have a lot on my mind."

He finally returned to his seat slumping down defeatedly. Does he tell him? Divulge his deepest secrets. His internal conflict clashed almost as much as the raging storm that makes up his outward feelings. He said too much already. But then again, it was all in the past.

"My mother, she --" his voice broke with a heavy sigh, it was difficult to think of this again. "The sand people, they took her prisoner. Captured and tortured her. I found their camp, but it was too late. She'd been through too much. Her body suffered too much pain. They destroyed her, Obi-Wan. And she died in my arms."

Of course there is more to this story, but he doesn't open up about that quite yet. Instead he goes another route.

"If only I could have gone back to Tatooine when my dreams first occurred. I could have stopped it. I could have saved her. But I didn't. I failed her. And then I failed you."

"I know it's difficult," Obi-Wan said quietly, trying to sound as understanding as he could. Thanks to whatever it was he had caught, it was also making it more difficult for him to control his emotions. If Anakin wasn't so focused on himself, he probably would sense that from him.

However, as Anakin does divulge some details, Obi-Wan goes quiet for a moment. Looking upon his former apprentice with sorrow and pity.

"I'm so sorry, Anakin." His words are sincere and heartfelt. He hadn't known that he'd struggled with this. While he had never met Shmi personally, he knew that Anakin felt strongly about his mother. Something Obi-Wan couldn't entirely relate with since he'd never really known his own mother.

"Perhaps, perhaps not. No matter what happens, we have to believe it was the will of the Force. Focusing on what could have happened will only bring you more torment, and potentially lead you down a dark path."

Obi-Wan sighed quietly, hoping this his friend would see the truth in his words and find comfort.

"I wish you had told me this sooner. I do want to help you."

Edited 2016-02-16 17:54 (UTC)

"You would have turned me over to the Council." His words were automatic, falling from his lips before they ever really registered as a thought. Though he subconsciously felt Obi-Wan's feelings, another part of his mind twisted into feelings of disbelief.

Obi-Wan would never trust him if he told him what happened after. But did he ever to begin with? The older Jedi stood like a tall beacon. The perfect example of a Jedi, he heard others say. Anakin knew him to be wise, and skillful. There was no one else he'd rather have at his side in battle.

But he didn't truly trust him. No one did. Were they afraid of his power? Anakin isn't sure, but he knows it's something. He feels it in the way some people look at him.

And sitting here now, with the raw emotion rippling between them, he didn't see any difference. Obi-Wan wanted honesty, but he wouldn't want to hear this next part.

"You don't know what I did," finally coming to the conclusion that he'll confess this one thing and see what happens. "I killed them, Master. I killed them all. The entire village. I slaughtered them like they were nothing. Small pieces of trash easily brushed aside. I went through the entire village and I murdered them all."

"For having dreams? Why would I do that?"

But Obi-Wan could sense that there was something more to it. Dread swept over him as he felt Anakin's conflicted feelings. But then the confession came and for several moments there hung a heavy silence. Until Obi-Wan finally bowed his head into his hand.

"Oh Anakin..."

There was no anger, no real shock either. Just a deep sorrow and pain. His voice sounding as if it might break. The normally reserved and supposedly perfect Jedi was struggling with his feelings. He had been so blind. The signs had been there and he had not seen them, or perhaps he hadn't wanted to. Memories flashed through his mind. That of his friend, his face twisted by darkness and hate. I hate you! And then the sight of him burning and writhing in agony.

If only he had known. Perhaps he could have stopped Anakin from destroying the Order and himself.

Anakin broke his gaze away and simply stared at the floor with his head bowed with a heavy burden of guilt. He knew it was a action he shouldn't have done and that it would catch up with him one day. Perhaps it was too late for the Order to punish him for something years ago.

But surely his confession must have filled Obi-Wan with disappointment. He failed his master and himself. And in a way, even his mother. She would not have approved of the slaughter. Through all the pain and torture she still held onto a pure-hearted goodness. Something Anakin obviously lacked.

"When we go back ... you will tell the Council?" He spoke his words with a heavy sigh being both a question and a statement.

He assumed Obi-Wan would feel it necessary, to turn him over for his actions. A dark secret like that one could not be looked upon lightly. Even Anakin knew that much.

Disappointment didn't even begin to describe it, and not just in Anakin either. But the Jedi Master tries to reign in his feelings, his head still bowed as he sat hunched over in his chair. He couldn't bring himself to look at his friend just yet.

"It's too late for that. The Council and the Jedi Order are no more."

The words fell from his lips before Obi-Wan really had a chance to think about it.

"What?!" Anakin exclaimed and immediately jerked to his feet. "How?"

Emotions of guilt and regret melded into ones of anger. What happened to the Jedi? What is Obi-Wan talking about? The questions screamed rabidly in his mind and other than his first response he didn't know where to start. His mind struggles to put it all together.

He tries to hold it together. Keep his emotions in check, but he senses no deception from the elder Jedi. But still, he could be mistaken right? That small glimmer of hope remained. That Obi-Wan was wrong. Or mistaken.

His earlier thoughts of his confession were now lost to this new revelation. The more he learns, the more he does not want to know.

As Anakin jumped to his feet, Obi-Wan looked up at him with a grimace. And with that one question it all comes pouring out. The Jedi Master unable to stop himself from speaking the whole truth.

"It was Palpatine. He was behind everything. The corruption in the Senate, the war, the clones, everything. It was all a plot to take control of the galaxy and destroy the Jedi. He's the Sith Lord that we had been looking for. The clone troopers turned against me and the others. Many Jedi were killed and you turned to the Dark Side. With the clones you attacked the temple and slaughtered everyone, even the Younglings."

He regretted it as soon as he had spoken. This was not the way he would have given Anakin this news, but he was unable to stop himself.

The words struck Anakin like a thousand knives tearing into his heart. They twisted and he found himself staring at Obi-Wan in disbelief. This could not be true. None of it. Palpatine was his friend, his mentor, the person he could talk to about almost anything. He trusted him. There's no way he could be the darkness they sought.

And him? Turning to the darkside?

Anakin took a step back. The emotions overloaded his mind, swelling it with fear, confusion and other thoughts.

"No. No. You're mistaken. That would never happen. I -- No. Palpatine is my friend he'd never turn on us. And I would never --" He wanted to explode. Call Obi-Wan a liar. Scream at him to stop making things up.

Why would he say this? Why?

"This isn't true. You're simply mistaken. Confused. That's all," he continued, trying to justify everything said. It was the only way his mind could make sense of it all. The only way he could cope with what he was just told.

"Everything is fine. You'll see when we get back. This place, it has corrupted your mind somehow."

Obi-Wan let out a shuddering breath as he listened to Anakin's denial. He couldn't really blame him. It was a lot to take in and hard to believe.

"I only wish that were true."

This said softly in response. If only he was mistaken, or confused, or anything else. Anything but that nightmare he had to live through. But thankfully Anakin didn't ask any more questions. Perhaps it was time to stop before he did. Thus Obi-Wan rose to his feet, careful to keep his cloak wrapped around him so that Anakin's Lightsaber couldn't be seen.

"I'm sorry, Anakin. I really have said too much. Stay here, I'll be going to Hatal for a few days. I need to be alone."

He needed to wait this virus out before he did any more damage.

Edited 2016-02-21 07:51 (UTC)

Anakin wanted to yell at him to stop, to come back and explain himself. Why he would throw out all these obvious lies. But he couldn't bring himself to call out after him. He stood there frozen in a state of emotional turmoil.

Finally taking a step back he collapsed into a chair. The burden of this new knowledge was far too much for him. Holding his head with both his hands, he stared at the floor and waited for Obi-Wan to leave. He needed to think about everything and what he was going to do next.

For now he'll just stay in the room for a few days until he can gather his thoughts.

Though later when Obi-Wan finally returns after the virus is over he'll probably find several pieces of furniture broken out of general frustration.

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